Woog's Tooth

A little boy with grin so wide
Ran down the stairs all full of pride
“I pulled it out, so there,” said he
“It did not hurt a bit, you see.”

He showed me chompers shining white
And bottom center was the sight:
A gap so dark I barely saw
the yawning chasm of his maw.

“Another one is coming loose,”
He tiptoed up and showed me thus
While pinched between his fingers two
The milky peg, that calcium'ed clue.

For weeks he'd worried with his tongue
The wobbling stalk, a stubborn one
I'd oft pull grimy hands from tooth
As absently, he'd pull the root.

So now that clinging tooth is gone
And in its place, a sunken gum.
A teasing glimpse of winking bright:
A rising tooth behind the site.

He prances up and down, this boy
My gapped-tooth son, my pride and joy
He hides the tooth ever carefully
Away from the greedy tooth fairy.

Say Baby

He sidles up to me while I work, quiet-like, a sparkle in his slitty eyes.

“Say 'baby'!” He squeals, hugging my arm to his face and giggling. I look down at him and smile despite the interruption.

Eli and I have a running argument. I am trying to get him to give up the bottle. He is digging his heels in, attempting to delay the inevitable.

“You're not a baby anymore, you're a big boy,” I tell him. But he laughs up at me, both with his eyes and his triangular smile, while he squashes his nose into the soft part of my arm, breathing. With big snuffling noises and little growling sounds, he continues to look up at me sideways, wriggling like a frisky puppy, “say 'baby',” he urges.

It is times like these I am hard pressed at denying the very baby-hood of him: the chubby cheeks, the soft plump limbs, the remaining infant scent, and the special sweetness he employs to get his way.

“Mommy! Mommy!” He chirrups.

“Pet-a-poo! Pet-a-poo!” I reply.

But at night, just before bed, when he asks, “Peas...gimme...miiik...”

I tell him: “'Pet, you're a big boy. Big boys don't drink from the bottle.”

He runs to his cupboard and hands me one of his empties, “Miiiiik!” He yells mutinously, “MIIIIIIK!”

And after he drinks his fill, he crawls over to where I am frowning at him in disapproval. “Miss-you, Mommy!” he sing-songs placatingly, “say 'baby'!”

I am tempted to keep the status quo, just to have more of his hugs and squeals and sweet clingy softness, but there is his mouthful of teeth to consider, and I am sorely torn.

In the morning, he reaches over from his bed to feel for my arm, “'morning, Mommy....miss-you! Say 'baby'...”

I look down at him, and he is still half-asleep, but there is a quarter of a smile on his face where the morning sun is beaming, and his fat sausage fingers clutch at my arm as if never wanting to let go.

And neither can I.

Blown Away

Woog and I couldn't stop watching this. We're looking forward to their next installment with bated breaths.

This Day...

Celebrate mommy-hood, all ye who have... nursed, spent sleepless nights with newborns and feverish children, changed thousands of diapers, shaken millions of bottles of formula, gotten peed and poo'd on, rubbed salve on diaper rash, kissed boo-boos, gotten spit on, screamed at, vomited upon, attended countless tedious PTA meetings, done homework with disinterested tantrumy kids, and generally spent so much time as uncelebrated maternal slaves.... HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

The payback? Priceless!

Atch Does 41

Atch celebrated his 41^st birthday yesterday running after his rambunctious sons at the mall. And then he dragged half a burlap sack of garden soil home so I could experiment with the heretofore unexplored regions of my dubious green thumb.

I got him a litre of Carlos Primero, and a litre of Johnny Walker Black, plus a bottle of Carlo Rossi Muscat for the both of us. He scolded. He frowned. He complained. He flexed his well-defined skinflint muscles. So expensive, he said. Three bottles! Too much.

He finally shut up when he opened the Johnny Walker box and discovered it came with two personalized whiskey tumblers.

Say thank you, I urged.

Thank you, he finally said, giving me a smooch and an unsuccessfully disguised pleased smile.

Earlier, the bank's HRD department had ordered him to take a vacation leave. They complained that he was present everyday, in all sorts of weather, eschewing his leave credits to loom over his stressed employees with his dark frown and watchful slits.

In typical Atchbund fashion, he choose his birthday week to take off so he wouldn't have to treat his co-workers to a birthday snack. My husband, the cheapskate.

Still, he channelled his bank manager personality over the household, harassing Woog as the boy lingered over his meals, growling at Eli for being so stubborn, and telling me off for being late for work.

Relax, L'Atchy-poo, I told him, you're on vacation. He glared at me, glancing meaningfully at the clock. It seems the only time he has ever relaxed is when he snores in deep sleep, or right after spilling his seed. When I come to think of it, one is synonymous with the other.

Today, the three bottles remain untouched, still in their boxes. I've texted him to chill the Carlo Rossi, and to pick me up for work so I could treat his thick unglamorous toes to a much-needed pedicure.

He is going to complain about the expense again, I know, all the while trying to keep his mouth from lifting at the corners – my very own “Oscar the Grouch”.

Happy birthday, L'Atchy.

Edited to add:

Grrrrr....

He picked me up after work and had to reverse a couple of times to avoid hitting the curb, drunk out of his mind.

He had taken it upon himself that morning to visit one of his old drinking and pot-smoking buddies a couple of cities away (I'm on vacation, Aifee!). That answered my question about why Woog called me at work earlier, looking for his Tatay:

Maybe he's in Greensville at Auntie Inday's house, Mom. Do you have the number?

Go check, Woog. Take this down. 708_ _ _ _

Maybe he's at Bata with Manong Kylot?

Try and call Bata, Woog.

Ok, Mom. Dubby!

But no. The dearly beloved birthday celebrant had gotten himself good and sloshed, celebrating his birthday with friends at a corner sari-sari store, even before celebrating with his family. I practically had to steer his feet in a relatively straight course to the salon to have his toe nails done, where he plunked himself down into the lounging chair and went straight to sleep.

Mouth ajar. Leaking alcoholic ectoplasm, and loudly vibrating with drunken apnea.

The girl who did his nails did try mightily hard to stifle her giggles (he sounds like an outboard motor, no?)

And of course there was no chilled bottle of Muscat when we got home. No intimate and mildly inebriated conversation over sisig. He went straight to bed, leaving his Aifee fuming, fuming, fuming....

Post-Holy Week Guilt

Spending what was supposed to be a summer holiday under the sun has left me, not only with browner skin, but a muddy-stained conscience, as well.

Growing up, Holy Week was observed with much piety and reflection, partly influenced by the stiffling dictates of a rigid Catholic school, but mostly because of parents who believed in old folks' tales of evil spirits who freely walked the earth immediately preceeding the Good Friday of Christ's death. As a consequence, we were raised believing in rather stiff spiritual absolution mixed with a good deal of fearful superstition.

University came, and with it a mini-renaissance. Let out to run free in the world, or at least a world as big as our financial resources would allow, my siblings and I eschewed most things religious and embraced with abandon all things hedonistic. This included leaving out the “holy” in Holy Week, and cavorting in beaches, under waterfalls, or beside rivers, as soon as this long Catholic holiday hit the calendars.

Lately, though, as I get on in years, and my own children frolic in waters I vowed never to taint with fanatic religious fervor or superstitious belief, I feel a gaeity that is shallow, and a happiness colored in a new shade called empty.

Afterwards, I seek out the churches of my youth, and sit staring at the altar wondering how to get closer. Because I have been feeling so far away, and so out of touch. Perhaps, I should reflect more? Or finish my prayers before I fall asleep? Abstain? Fast?

I read somewhere that guilt is the sole province of a vengeful Christian God, or at least the God His Church professes He is. No other religion inspires so much flagellation of back and conscience, particularly for Catholics during the Holy Week. Enlightened and very much aware of the world, I still fall prey to this blight of consciousness.

An ex-boyfriend once regaled me of his family's tradition of doing the stations of the cross at several churches during the Holy Week. This struck me as fairly restrictive at the time. Why relive scenes of pain and suffering, over and over and over again, in the repressive first heat of summer, when the siren call of the sea and the inviting whisper of tropical palms beckoned. Ever a creature of the sun, I heeded each call.

I look at my children now, eyes and teeth shining white in their newly browned faces, and I wonder if the road I am paving for them will eventually lead to a hollow spiritual core. The same core now echoing my teeny voice in a cavernous dark, over and over and over.