Moringa oleifera

Two things finally gave up on me as the new year took its first tentative steps into becoming. The passing of the first made me feel as if I’d lost a good friend. The second one continues to linger, but its faltering left me in a panic so hysterical and a sadness so deep that I sought a support group (hilarious really, Missus I-can-do-this-on-my-own-thank-you-very-much, finally asked for help).

The first one to reach the end of its path was my good old trusty electric breast pump. A gift from my aunt, it was Woog’s best bet at partaking from his mommy’s fresh milky goodness when she resumed work four years ago, and it was Eli’s as well…up until recently, when, despite Atch’s conscientious efforts at repair, maintenance and replacement of parts, it finally gave up its feeble ghost.

Almost immediately and all too soon, my milk ducts followed (oh woe! oh discordia!) I was in a state of denial, convinced that the success of motherhood depended on a neverending supply from the mommy pumps. And Eli barely six months old!

Who else can feel as useful and as needed as a breastfeeding mother? The very idea of being the beloved baby’s primary source of sustenance. The endless nights of jumping up at said beloved baby’s cries and the offering of one’s breasts to be suckled dry. The stinging cracked nipples. The muscle-constricting drum-tightness of mammaries screaming to be emptied. All that bleary-eyed sacrifice eventually becoming a source of righteous pride: here stands before you a nursing mother.

Even if my milk had slowed from its previous squirty gush, Eli still woke me every two hours in the night, like clockwork. He still fed for the usual half-hour before falling asleep. But the suspicion that I had become nothing more than this huge human pacifier wouldn’t go away.

I went online at my favorite parenting forum, seeking a solution, even going as far as inquiring if it were my modest bustline responsible for the dwindling milk supply.

And among those wonderful fellow mommies’ suggestions of increasing fluid intake, frequent nursings and imbibing cerveza negra (black beer), I found this: Moringa oleifera. The malunggay leaf, that bitter vegetable and bane of my childhood. More importantly, it came in capsule form (very convenient should I start gagging on a surfeit of malunggay-based broths). I went out and got some. I also bought a manual glass breast pump which promptly fell and broke (nerves? Nah, just the looming prospect my impending milk extinction).

Eli isn’t complaining, even if he has to work quite a bit to get his quota of milky goodness. He’s a very complacent baby, particularly now that he’s started working his gums around his first solids: what’s a trickle of milk when there’s that fantastically yummy banana & honey-flavored oatmeal to look forward to? He seems to say.

Ouch.

But I continue to take my malunggay pills religiously, hoping to delay the inevitable. And maybe, just maybe, prolong my usefulness – if not for my baby’s sake, then for mine.

Bite Me...And Everything Else As Well!

My younger son is teething. He drools on everything during the day, and at night when that maddening itchy-ouch starts gnawing at his poor mandibles, his sharp cries wake us in the night.

We have given him paracetamol, cold wet towels and teething rings. We have rubbed his gums with chilled xylitol gel and waltzed him around the apartment in the dead of the night singing “Moon River” while he whimpers and grinds his gums against our shoulder blades.

And in the mornings we stagger groggily downstairs, Woog with his eyes still encrusted and his brows bunched in protest. Eli meanwhile gurgles cheerfully at our zombie-selves (Good morning, my family! Isn’t this a wonderful day?), runners of saliva flowing from his grinning mouth and glistening on his chin.

I try to assure myself this is temporary, even as he bites down hard on my nipple and pulls it out like taffy (and I try not to cry out too loudly lest he choke on his meal in terror). Surely that tooth will rear its milky head soon, and we shall all dance with joy – yehey, one out, thirty more to go!

We are lucky this time, though. Woog, when he was teething, had the sniffles, a wheezing flu, a temperature hovering at 40 degrees (104 degrees farenheit), and a stint of barfing and wet bowels that ended with him being attached, screaming, to an intravenous drip. Of course we were younger then, and had the energy to stand sentry for two nights straight while he screeched, struggled to dislodge the needle, vomited and shitted his way to recovery. Eli’s suffering, and consequently ours, is trivial in comparison.

(Papa God, You are just indeed!)

And with that in perspective, we shall hunker down and grit our remaining teeth while our son sets out to grow his.

Happy Year of the Fire Hog!

We started out the year with our previously reliable high-speed DSL internet connection lumbering about like a well-sated sow. Apparently all pertinent fiber optic cables connecting us to the hub in Taiwan were badly dislodged after the earthquake last December. Dubious, I tried out a couple of internet cafes (and alas!), it’s the same case everywhere, and will be so till the end of this month.

Oh well, least I can do is open my mail and take a look at the e-cards I might have missed last year. That and to fling my wish in the air to the gods of north, east, south and west that this year turns out to be a bountiful year of lechon pig for everyone (high cholesterol count in mind, I mean that in the strictest figurative sense, of course).

My Very Brief Interview

I've been interviewed at "5 Minutes for Mom".












If I knew I'd be posted over there, I'd have taken the interview more seriously. Oh well....